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Arrrbigail, me matees

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1987-06-30

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These are quotes from Brian Andreas, I like him. *ahem*:

We lay there and looked up at the night sky and she told me about stars called blue squares and red swirls and I told her I'd never heard of them. "Of course not," she said, "the really important stuff they never tell you. You have to imagine it on your own."

I have a friend who used to ride bareback in a circus. In one picture I've seen she is wearing blue sequins with her smile spread wide as her arms. One time I asked her was it hard to balance? No, she said, you always balance. Only sometimes, she added, you balance on your butt.

This is a Christmas list in code, so no one gives it a second glance.

This is a sideways ladder because she likes to feel she's making progress, but she's afraid of heights.

Fortunate enough to know the difference between good & bad with some free time to try it out

I'm a good jumper, he said, but I'm not so good at landing. Maybe you should stay closer to the ground then, I said & he shook his head & said the ground was the whole problem in the first place.

If I love you with all my heart, she said, what will you give me? & then she stopped & said I didn't have to answer that because she was going to do it anyway.

I'm at that point in the day where I'm tired of myself, she said, so if you don't mind, I'm going to be someone else until bedtime & we had a lovely time together, my new friend & I

I didn't listen to her because she was my mother & wouldn't know anything until I was much older.

I like butter & sugar & being alive a whole lot & today I'm kind of sad because with all the latest studies I figured out I'm going to have to choose.

There are some days when no matter what I say it feels like I'm far away in another country & whoever is doing the translating has had far too much to drink

What do you want? I said & she said, in the abstract or the concrete? & I decided to rephrase the question. I'm going to the store, I said. Need anything? & she frowned & said, Obviously, you meant concrete

this is an invitation to an amazing future & I can guarantee it because most futures are & even if they aren't there are better things to do than blaming me about it

Every afternoon my grandmother would have 2 chocolates with her coffee. I asked her once how many she thought she had eaten in her life. If you laid them all end to end to the moon & back, she said, I'd be sitting right here even as we speak & then we celebrated her return with an extra chocolate.

these are house demons & their favorite thing is to get dressed up & go to an open house & pretend it'd be absolutely perfect if it just had one more bedroom

Not exactly schizophrenic in the classical sense, but close enough that people give him all the room he needs on the sidewalk.

this is a rocket car that goes faster than you can see & it is only here as a personal favor to me, otherwise you wouldn't even know it exists

She tapped her finger & nothing happened & she thought she had lost her magic, but it had only changed & it took her awhile to figure it out.

Wish for your deepest desires, she said & when I asked if they'd come true, she said they always do, so you might as well get them out in the open while you're still young enough to correct any serious mistakes.

My grandfather used to come home from work & he'd stomp twice on the porch with his big boots & he'd say, It's time to be afraid & we'd start screaming & my sister hid behind the piano & I'd hide in the hall closet that smelled like moth balls & it would get very quiet & then he would say, Now, it's time to be very afraid & then we'd start laughing & he'd drag us out, one under each arm, & give us toffee & chocolates & to this day whenever someone says it's time to be afraid, I scream for a little while like everybody else, but I'm really just waiting for the treats

I think we should make all the flags in the parade out of long underwear, he said, because then only the really fun people will come.

This is a monster in a box & all it eats is sugar & raw hamburger so you can understand how it got to be so fierce.

There are times I think I'm doing things on principle, but mostly I just do what feels good. But that's a principle, too.

She saw herself reflected in the store window & then the sun changed & she disappeared & all she could see was her eyes & she remembered thinking, I make a very nice floor lamp & that was the day she decided to quit her job.

hot tropical sun aimed without mercy at those who have any ambition whatsoever

There has never been a day when I have not been proud of you, I said to my son, though some days I'm louder about other stuff so it's easy to miss that.

How many people can you love before it's too much? she said & I said I didn't think there was any real limit as long as you didn't care if they loved you back.

This pachyderm has a highly developed fashion sense for someone so far from the capitals of Europe, but it helps that she only dresses in natural fibers.

forced to listen to abba, so she's hating the 80's just on principle

Often, I write all day long with white ink on white paper, late into the night, until it is all I can do to feel the letters curving to earth from the tip of the pen & then, I fall asleep. Dreaming of running, or maybe driving in a car the color of water & I wake the next day remembering nothing & I gather the stack of paper & a pen of black on the desk in front of me & the words begin to dance over the page like long legged insects across a still lake & the words in white whisper behind & underneath the new day. If there is any secret to this life I live, this is it: the sound of what cannot be seen sings within everything that can. & there is nothing more to it than that.

My uncle Obert had only 3 fingers on his left hand. He lost the others during corn planting one spring. My fingers are buried out in these fields somewhere, he used to tell us & I check for them every summer to see if they've sprouted yet. I asked him once what he'd do if they ever did sprout. He thought for a minute. I'd run like hell, he said, & never look back & then he made us promise not to tell my aunt.

American Dream-stop

You're the strangest person I ever met, she said & I said you, too & we decided we'd know each other a long time.

I know she’s not really gone, he said, but the world still feels smaller to me today

There are angels everywhere you can imagine. I saw one hiding in the closet in our bedroom once & I invited her out, but she said she was waiting for a friend thank you just the same & next time I looked she was gone.

Remember to use positive affirmations. I am not a dork is not one of them.

In my dream, the angel shrugged & said, If we fail this time, it will be a failure of imagination & then she placed the world gently in the palm of my hand.

He just sat in the church looking up at nothing in particular & I whispered what are you doing? & he said if Jesus had been a chicken would we have Weber grills all over the place instead of crosses? & I had a hard time concentrating after that, too.

This is a special bike that's not very good at listening to excuses, so it takes you exactly where you really want to go & if you kick & scream it makes you pedal harder & go up steeper hills until you're too out of breath to complain & after awhile, if you're lucky, you start to see that it doesn't really matter if you laugh or cry, because it just wants to ride like the wind

I'm fastest, he said, when I'm the one that gets to say go.

Share & share alike, I always say, he said What's that mean? I said & he smiled & said, You've got the credit cards, Dad. Make the leap.

I've always liked the time before dawn because there's no one around to remind me who I'm supposed to be, so it's easier to remember who I am

When I die, she said, I'm coming back as a tree with deep roots & I'll wave my leaves at the children every morning on their way to school & whisper tree songs at night in their dreams.
Trees with deep roots know about the things that children need.

He discovered his reset button early on & there were not many things that bothered him all the rest of his days just because of that.

Don't you hear it? she asked & I shook my head no & then she started to dance & suddenly there was music everywhere & it went on for a very long time & when I finally found words all I could say was thank you.

I have a great idea for a book in Spanish, he said, but all I know is English, so it's probably another one of those things that will go to the grave with me.

I asked her why she never told us about the Ten Commandments & she said she wasn't ever that good with numbers so she loved everything as best she could & I remember thinking who needs all those rules anyway with a mother like her around.

She left pieces of her life behind her everywhere she went. It's easier to feel the sunlight without them, she said.

This used to be a mean monster until he got sick one winter with the flu & stayed in bed & watched too much Little House on the Prairie & now the littlest thing & he starts to cry.

When she played her music even the night demons stopped their work & it took them some time to remember what it was they were doing & the best of them had no stomach for it for a long time after that.

sees a lot of stuff other people miss

I'll bet you wouldn't even miss me if I died, she said. Depends on if you'd been grumpy in those final days, I said & she tried to look sad but I saw the smile anyway.

She laid on my chest & her breathing filled me almost to beyond what I could hold.

Except for the running naked through the forest, there's not a lot I miss.

How'd it go at soccer? I said & he said we worked on fundamentals & I said like why you were even chasing around after a ball in the first place? & from the way he looked at me I figured out that was probably too fundamental.

I have a friend who does numerology in California & she called me up one night & said that 444 was the number of Wal-Mart, which is 30 percent off of 666 & we were both amazed & then I hung up the phone & said now I remember why we moved to Iowa.

In the end, I think that I will like that we were sitting on the bed, talking & wondering where the time had gone.

He ran quickly with a sound like raindrops & left his handwriting in all the secret places. I found this one underneath the big yellow rock in the garden. It said this: watch out for the little black dog. It can smell when you've had hot dogs.

What do I get for this? I said & the angel gave me a catalog filled with toasters & clock radios & a basketball signed by Michael Jordan & I said, But this is just stuff & the angel smiled at me & swallowed me in her arms. I'm so glad you said that, she whispered to me. I knew you still had a chance.

The top of his head was open up to the sky & when he walked down the street he'd end up with strange things in there like the number of dogs in China, or the time it takes to cook a pig. It's not really useful, he said, but I'd miss this stuff if it ever closed up.

I have always thought that stars turn into white birds in the morning light & sleep with their heads under their wings until the dusk begins to walk through the streets.

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